images in my head

Okay, let's try this again. I have more angst this time. :D

Trial results : Very grateful for econs and history, but I know I have to improve extensively before AS actually starts. And with the amount of work due for A2, I gotta figure out some way to manage my time and multitask like crazy. My Maths is horrible, as always. I thought from the looks of my result during a mini blind test I was improving. Instead, I'm just heading south. JOY. Statistics ain't my thing. I really don't care about specific probabilities of events and whether they're mutually exclusive or independent. I must admit I enjoy doing Maths, but of course especially so when I can actually solve the problems. Will only get Lit on Friday. Hopefully that one will turn out well. Whatever it is, I just gotta fix everything before the real thing. And also consider if I really want to continue with the Maths syllabus. I never wanted to take the damn subject in the first place really. But I assume it's too late since I already put it down as A levels in my applications. YIPPEEE.

I like History. No, I love History. The things I learn in college as well as the stuff outside the syllabus. I love travelling to see historical places. I like knowing the story behind events like say the Spanish Civil War or when and why the Synagogue el Transito was built. Plus, I really am determined to make my own scrap book about the places I've been to and will go to. Pictures and stories and shizz. Maybe I want just that for my birthday. But that's just wishful thinking. I'll prolly go on a scavenger hunt myself to get the perfect one. Yes, trying to make myself feel better here.

On a brighter note which seems to be dampened by the discouraging mood of KY, I might be going on a trip to Spain/Morocco in December. Might, insya Allah. (please let it come true) The best part is, I get to see Firdaus. That is also a might coz I don't know for sure how long I'll transit in Cairo. And besides, it'll be on Christmas Day so...yea. It's been too long since our last vacation overseas. Well, 2 years feels like a very long time okay?

I should really make some progress with my Islamic Studies folio right now but...heh. At least it's regarding stuff I like. Why is it that I'm never hungry these days? I literally eat for the sake of not getting gastric.