fickleness, go away

Now this is just plain weird. I've reread my previous posts and I can see now how it can be applied to both situations. It was not about you..

A piece for you by meaghan smith. The perfect song to listen to nowadays. And winter song by ingrid michaelson and sara bareilles.

Today I shall return to college with mixed feelings.. This is the second time I've been back to jb since college started but in this case it's different coz it's for two weeks. Kind of long but sufficient I guess. I did most of the things I wanted to do. Except doing research on oxford and cambridge and law and rereading my french revolution notes. Yay I'm scvrewed. I just feel like there isn't enough time for me to do all that now but I vow to do so next weekend. Along with the movie marathon I've planned. Hee.

I don't wanna see that person. Its too hard now. Or maybe it's easier. People would think that I'll be excited to get back and see 'them' but no. Ever since I met em all I got was trouble. But they have been very nice to me. Sort of. I dunno. Things have gotten a bit weird I think. Haha. I'm just glad everything is clarified. Now all I need to do is maintain a relative distance with them. It's just too much sometimes.

My grand plan will work this time. I will make sure it does. Seriously, I'm tired of going back on my own words. It's high time I walk the talk and be firm with my decisions.
That is why, as much as I want this time to be different and make it the way I once dreamed it to be, I know I can't. I cannot go on that road again. Haih.