I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

I can't stop listening to Lady Antebellum's songs : All We'd Ever Need and Need You Now. They make me all emo but still I can't seem to get enough. I'm not supposed to be emo. Not here, not now. Trying to get over this phase. And nothing's even happened yet. I know how it will turn out though and as much as I would hate to be caught in that situation, it's impossible for me to get away. Everywhere, every time. BAD timing. BAD BAD BAD timing.

Maybe it's karma. haha. What goes around comes around right? I'm so disillusioned by it all. I have to stop making the same mistakes again. Knowing the consequences to the extent that I can even imagine them vividly, and yet still hoping for some sort of "miracle" that things would be different this time around and that it will all be okay coz taking risks apparently doesnt suck.

So should I just put an end to this by backing away and never know what could happen and be on the "safe" side and supposedly be happy or should I take the risk, go through the pains and maybe even get the desired results in the end?

To quote Diana, I should just play along and see what time will do. This could possibly be the perfect time for me to learn how to be patient and relax and not push things to happen. It's been only a little over a month for crying out loud!

I miss school. I miss my teachers and the atmosphere. Kind of. I like it here no doubt; this is my place after all. Tomorrow is Convent's sports day and I won't be there. After 11 years of participating( as a spectator/ person-in-charge).. huh. Feels weird. A bit sad I have to say.

Results are coming out on the 16th of March. Just three weeks away. Oh gosh. I really hope for the best that I deserve.

History's calling. Pfft. When does it ever leave me alone anyway?

Reading you status made me feel sick to my stomach. In a way the quote was right..but.. I don't know. Perhaps it goes both ways